Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Goodbye, Toddler Clothes

Today, I mailed a 12-pound package of toddler clothes to my sister who has twins. It's time to clear out the baby clothes and make room for the big girl clothes!

Monday, June 29, 2009

Just When I Was Able to Make a Full Sentence...

Those who see me on a regular basis know that I've been taking Chinese lessons on and off for way over a year. So I just started taking some refresher lessons from a local college student. Of course, I was excited to show her some of my new files, and she said, "Oh, she probably speaks Cantonese."
Which just leads me back to the same conclusion that there is no way to prepare for international adoption. Everything just keeps changing! I can finally say "I want to buy two apples" in Mandarin, but it won't matter, because no one will understand me anyway in the province I will be going to. Well, I better go find out what language my daughter speaks!

Friday, June 26, 2009

No Nesting Going On

So, I'm very surprised with myself that I have not shown any "nesting" lately. This refers to the instinct whereby an expecting mother will have an uncontrollable urge to clean her house brought on by a desire to prepare a nest for her new baby, finish old projects, and in general, organize the home.
Actually, since last week, my home has actually sunk into a state of chaos. Dirty dishes and laundry, unorganized rooms, clutter, and long grass in the yard. The waiting is incomprehensively unbearable.
So this weekend, I will try to find my enthusiasm again. And if not, I guess I'll get in a good nap.

Friday, June 19, 2009

Our New Referral

Today, we signed and emailed a copy of our LOI and Letter of Agreement. It will be translated this weekend and it should be ready to go on Monday.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

One File, Two Families

One of the reasons we picked China was because of the fair and efficient process. China only allows one family to view a file at a time. A file is either placed on the individual agency's list or a list that all agencies may use, called the shared list.
Well, we have been patiently waiting for our PA (Pre-Approval) for two weeks. Today, we found out today that our agency never actually "had" the file and that the file was actually already locked by another family (at a different agency) who already has TA for her.
This is heartbreaking. I had a meltdown at work and came home and my husband didn't go to work either. Our agency has sent an apology and the CCAA has referred us a new file. It's been an emotionally draining day, and can one child really replace the bond you were building with another?
Only time will tell.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Old Song, New Meaning

"I Knew You Were Waiting For Me"

Like a warrior that fights
And wins the battle
I know the taste of victory
Though I went through some nights
Consumed by the shadows
I was crippled emotionally
Somehow I made it through the heartache
Yes I did, I escaped
I found my way out of the darkness,
Kept my faith (I know you did)
Kept my faith

When the river was deep I didn't falter
When the mountain was high I still believed
When the valley was low it didn't stop me, no no
I knew you were waiting
I knew you were waiting for me

With an endless desire I kept on searching
Sure in time our eyes would meet
Like the bridge is on fire
The hurt is over, one touch and you set me free
No, I don't regret a single moment
No I don't looking back
When I think of all those disappointments
I just laugh (I know you do), I just laugh

When the river was deep I didn't falter
When the mountain was high I still believed
When the valley was low it didn't stop me, no no
I knew you were waiting
I knew you were waiting for me

So we were drawn together through destiny
I know this love we share was meant to be
I knew you were waiting, knew you were waiting
I knew you were waiting, knew you were waiting for me

Artist: George Michael/Aretha Franklin
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Monday, June 1, 2009

Officially submitted our LOI

It's official - we have officially submitted our LOI for our girl today. The next step of the waiting child process is the Pre-Approval. This is the notification that the CCAA pre-approves our application to formally review our dossier.